As a child below 7yrs of age, i loved to draw stick figures and create scenes of picture stories while narrating them to my friends/classmates. I normally pause holding my pencil fixed to paper(probably thinking of the next scene) and saying "uhm","ehen" to punctuate or create suspense before drawing the next scene.
At the age of 13, i wrote a short love story(i was always fantasising about love) and gave it to a family friend to read. Annoyingly, she lost it(gave it to a friend who also gave a friend!). Then i never knew it was a talent.
Then i found myself writing poems! I kept it to myself for a while because i did not think anyone would love it until i started going for debates for my outstation C.Y.O.N group and i always WON! They noticed my writing talents(they read my debates) and encouraged me to post up motivational write-ups on our notice board. Though am not the prep-up kind of person, i still posted my poems. This gave me a challenge to write more as i wanted to see fresh articles every sunday. It made me happy. After i left for a higher education and the writings stopped.
At the beginning of my 2nd year, i got heart broken; my fantasies weren't real. I cried my heart out for three months(can you believe that?!). Later i was ready to pour it out to someone. He(val) cared about me(or so i thought; i liked daydreaming he was my TDH!) so i tried to say it all but i could not, then i brought out 3 poems i had written during my heart break. He said"wow! You have a great talent, what are you doing about it" bang! It hit my head that i was a born writer, then he said "hope you keep a collection of your poems". I felt bad for not keeping my poems. I decided to do so even if it was using my old school notebooks!
Another talent i found along side was drawing fashion wears. I drew designs for my Prom dress. My mum bought the wrong color, took it to the tailor and described something else:). In my 3rd year, i designed a beautiful top(it had a dropping neck line) and skirt for a room mate, she was so excited about the finished product(guess she had a good tailor!) that she asked me to draw designs she would use as a chief bride'smaid for a friends wedding! I was happy! I didn't draw for a long time. I had no motivation. In my final year, i drew a gown for my thanksgiving service. The tailor tried to get it but not exactly how i wanted it. It was still beautiful(at least thats what people said).
So now i know am creative. Oh! I forgot to mention that i started writing my own novel in my 3rd year. Great right?! Yeah, but my problem is motivation. I know if i put my mind to it and i have a pen and paper i would put beautiful thoughts on that paper. So now i tell myself"you have to be self-motivated because no one can bring out what you've got inside of you". Now i make it a habit to write or draw whatever i feel the moment i feel the urge instead of postponing or saying it ain't worth it. Thats why am writing this now.
So far so beautiful! Am glad to do this, but i've got to go now. See ya all later. Bye!

THE AWAKENING !

THE AWAKENING !

Hello friends and loved ones am dedicating this to all who have found themselves in a depressed state or feel beat up in life. I believe all you need is your own voice speak to you (as mine spoke to me below) and am hoping this helps a lot because I have been been there, I felt the desolation, I totally understand it and don't want anyone down that path. It may seem the only way to be now but trust me it gets you nowhere where you want to be. I also know one thing: no one else can take you out of that state except for you! I love you, please feel free to speak to yourself the same way I did and exhilarate in joy and freedom!

Am far too old to keep being in this state I say to myself its time to belief in yourself and grow with your potentials. The grave is full of great potentials they say but I keep thinking not mine. Its time to act and not think alone. I know if I say to myself lets do it and I put my self into it without looking back or thinking of society limitations I will make it. No need for down moments, no need for what ifs , no need for had I know. no need for regrets babe! Get up, do your best, do what you truly love and what will reflect your personality, take the bull by the horn, bite the tiger by the tail ( whatever that means; hehehe) , arise and shine I say to myself for nations are waiting for my manifestation.
I know it in my heart that I was born a star and today I arise to confirm it because my spirits affirmation consolidates it. In my language- The Ibo Language, there's a saying that goes thus " Onye kwe, Chi ya ekwe" meaning if you agree your God agrees! and that's my stand in life hence forth! No more depressions, no more excuses, no more emotional battles, no more limitations, no more distractions for me; henceforth. I arise and shine like the star I am and I forge ahead with the speed of light cause I've been illuminated with the truth that I am my own limitation. knowing today that am unstoppable is all I need to run with. I take a stance today to be the best of me, to become great through my uniqueness,my strengths, my style, my creativity and nothing else but originality. if I fall tomorrow all I have to do is get up and take another step or leap just like a child learning to walk, knowing there's nothing to loose but all the experiences to gain. I now live with no regrets, no fear, no limitations and no worries whatsoever.
Today I arise, today I stand, today I fly and now am soaring like on eagles wings because I have been awakened in my spirit! there's no tomorrow, there's only today! Am making the best of Today because Today only matters! Today I exist and the world knows today I exist! Its the morning of my Today and am wide Awake!

I hope this worked for you. Let me know so you can comment here on my blog or my twitter handle @Cwensworld. Ciao!